tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-43326249350995034872012-02-16T19:39:06.387+08:00Sathepine's College RomanceSathepinenoreply@blogger.comBlogger71100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4332624935099503487.post-29109969269447227602004-07-21T04:41:00.003+08:002010-04-13T05:45:29.123+08:00i watch your back as you walk away from me<br />into the distant dark you go<br />i could still feel the warmth of your embrace<br />moments ago<br /><br />you give the final wave from afar<br />i wave back with a smile<br />but my heart is clenched with the thought<br />that you’d be leaving again for a while<br /><br />i stand alone and cold<br />on the ground where we used to stand<br />where we used to laugh and cry and kiss<br />holding hands<br /><br />the pain of letting you go<br />and the joy of seeing you again<br />will keep me waiting for your return<br />which i know not when<br /><br />go out into the world and live<br />as i stay here in my own reality<br />believing in that one day when<br />you’ll come home and return to me<br /><br />i believe in our forever<br />and that’s why i shall be strong<br />so you can run into my arms<br />and see my smile when you come home<br /><br />because i’ll be waiting,<br />smiling,<br />when you come home.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4332624935099503487-2910996926944722760?l=shaiah.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Sathepinenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4332624935099503487.post-19885894786013846662003-09-13T04:34:00.000+08:002010-04-13T04:40:05.038+08:00i call to you to keep him safe<br />are you listening to me?<br />i want you watching him<br />because i can't<br />i'm just a helpless girl<br />who doesn't know a thing<br />about prayer<br />well, i'm praying now<br />desperately<br />i call to you to keep him safe<br />are you listening to me?<br /><br />do i have the right to pray<br />so doubtfully like this?<br />there's no one else to turn to<br />and i'm afraid<br />please make him strong enough<br />to be alright<br />please get him through the night<br />while i pray in half-belief<br />to the one he trusts completely<br />do i have the right to pray<br />so doubtfully like this?<br /><br />allow me to pretend<br />to believe and trust you<br />that's the best i could attempt<br />to fight the haunting thoughts<br />of his body on the pavement<br />lifeless, breathless, cold<br />imagination unfolds<br />and i'm trembling<br />i'm afraid to lose him<br />please allow me to pretend<br />to believe and trust you<br /><br />allow me to embrace<br />this flicker of faith<br />there's this hollow feeling<br />of not knowing<br />and i can't find someone else to run to<br />so pardon me if i call you<br />i mean no disrespect<br />i'm just a helpless girl<br />who's so afraid<br />so allow me to embrace<br />this flicker of faith<br /><br />i just want him safe.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4332624935099503487-1988589478601384666?l=shaiah.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Sathepinenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4332624935099503487.post-43865452354019083882003-08-06T04:30:00.001+08:002010-04-13T04:33:46.590+08:00black card folded<br /><div>glue name design</div><div>hands on pencil</div><div>stuck for a time</div><div>couldn't figure out</div><div>what to write about</div><div>to somehow make things special for you</div><div><br />words filled the paper</div><div>but i'm not content</div><div>none could compare</div><div>to the things that i meant</div><div>how can i say</div><div>in some special way</div><div>that i'm somehow complete with you</div><div><br />twenty years ago</div><div>when you took your first breath</div><div>and saw the first light</div><div>the same breath you breathe</div><div>when you whisper goodnight</div><div>when you speak to me words</div><div>that somehow seem right</div><div>they make sense</div><div>yes, you bring the sense to my life</div><div><br />the best i can give</div><div>are the words of my heart</div><div>the life that i live</div><div>may have torn me apart</div><div>but the fact that you care</div><div>that you'll always be there</div><div>makes it light</div><div>life is worth living with you</div><div><br />i so want to say</div><div>let's marry away</div><div>i so want to feel</div><div>that trust that could heal</div><div>the patches of pain in you</div><div>i want to love you through and through</div><div>but i'm trapped in the dark</div><div>and i try to break free</div><div>and i beg you to wait for me</div><div>please wait</div><div>i believe in you and me</div><div><br />twenty years ago</div><div>when you took your first breath</div><div>and saw the first light</div><div>the same breath you breathe</div><div>when you tell me goodnight</div><div>when you whisper words</div><div>that somehow seem right</div><div>they make sense</div><div>yes, you bring the sense to my life</div><div><br />and there are things i'll prove to be true</div><div>happy birthday, i love you</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4332624935099503487-4386545235401908388?l=shaiah.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Sathepinenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4332624935099503487.post-43307496324449081582003-05-04T04:23:00.001+08:002010-04-13T04:29:36.242+08:00here i am<br /><div>thinking of you</div><div>again.</div><div>wondering how long</div><div>till this ends</div><div>waiting in pain</div><div>for you to realize</div><div>that i'm not the one</div><div>i'm just someone</div><div>meant to be with you</div><div>for a moment of your life</div><div>and a moment of mine<br /><br /></div><div>are you thinking of forever,</div><div>i wonder?</div><div>are you thinking of a future</div><div>for us?</div><div>are you thinking</div><div>"will this last?"</div><div>while i ask</div><div>"will it really?"</div><div>damn, i love you dearly</div><div>but i'm going crazy</div><div>because i know</div><div>that part of you</div><div>belongs to her alone</div><div>and that part of you she owns</div><div>is a part of you</div><div>that will always be drawn to her</div><div>always come back to her</div><div>always</div><div>because she</div><div>is a part of you</div><div>and i can't compete with that</div><div><br />so here i am</div><div>thinking of you</div><div>again.</div><div>wondering if i should say</div><div>how i'm feeling</div><div>what i'm feeling</div><div>why i'm feeling this way</div><div>but you don't need to know</div><div>what is happening to me</div><div>either way, i'm alright</div><div>no matter how much i cry tonight</div><div>i'll be fine</div><div>because today</div><div>you are mine</div><div>but tomorrow</div><div>the sun doesn't have to shine</div><div>i don't mind at all</div><div>i've already built a special wall</div><div>just to protect me</div><div>so you see</div><div>you don't have to be</div><div>so worried over me</div><div>i know</div><div>you'd never want to hurt me so</div><div>as i know</div><div>your feelings are not yours to control</div><div>it's not your fault</div><div>if you end up knowing</div><div>you still love her after all</div><div>you may leave me anytime</div><div>i'll be perfectly fine</div><div>because for a moment</div><div>you were mine.<br /><br /></div><div>and so.</div><div>here i am.</div><div>thinking of you.</div><div>again.</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4332624935099503487-4330749632444908158?l=shaiah.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Sathepinenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4332624935099503487.post-12881425262813331272003-03-20T04:19:00.000+08:002010-04-13T04:22:54.509+08:00here i am<br /><div>frozen in time and space</div><div>wondering what to do next</div><div>what's right</div><div>what's not</div><div>when all i end up doing</div><div>is what i want</div><div>even though i know</div><div>it would tear me apart<br /><br /></div><div>here i am</div><div>frozen in time and space</div><div>listening to your voice</div><div>as you sing beside me</div><div>who are you singing to?</div><div>no one but yourself?</div><div>still, at the back of my mind</div><div>i watch you</div><div>i listen to you</div><div>and feel my heart break</div><div>to the tune of your song</div><div><br />i'm trying my best</div><div>to take care of you</div><div>you're so vulnerable</div><div>so fragile</div><div>but i wonder</div><div>if i embrace you</div><div>will it change anything?</div><div><br />i go home and leave you</div><div>i am alone and i feel empty</div><div>and the radio plays</div><div>the song you sang</div><div>i can't forget you</div><div>i don't even try</div><div><br />you know</div><div>i'll be here if you need me</div><div>and i'll take care of you</div><div>even if it breaks my heart</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4332624935099503487-1288142526281333127?l=shaiah.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Sathepinenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4332624935099503487.post-74454388488229666862003-03-04T05:06:00.000+08:002010-04-13T04:16:12.015+08:00i stand still outside myself<br />watching me watching you<br />and no one can see how much i bleed<br />but me<br /><br />i reach out to myself<br />as i fall apart at the loss of you<br />but no one knows that i lost you<br />not even you<br /><br />i had to show you what i feel<br />and at the same time, keep my distance<br />for your sake<br /><br />my feelings are secondary<br />and i watch myself set it all aside<br />numb and empty<br />hoping nothing<br />wishing nothing<br />doubting everything<br /><br />in the dark,<br />enveloped in pain<br />i smile<br />just because i was right all along<br /><br />i knew<br />just by your smile<br />and the look in your eyes<br />that you belong to no one but her<br /><br />please<br />let me turn away<br />please<br />let me let you go<br />please<br />tell me<br />you don't need me anymore<br /><br />but she's gone<br />and you've got no one else but me<br />or do you?<br /><br />and your smile<br />and the look in your eyes<br />tell me<br />that you need me<br /><br />so i shall simply comply<br /><br />while i watch myself break my heart in two<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4332624935099503487-7445438848822966686?l=shaiah.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Sathepinenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4332624935099503487.post-20573125863776449422002-01-02T04:54:00.002+08:002010-04-13T04:18:52.854+08:00hey, you<br /><div>simple-looking guy</div><div>stand up</div><div>take a breath and sigh</div><div>embrace</div><div>all your pain inside</div><div>'cause it won't go away</div><div>with the gentleness of your smile</div><div><br /></div><div>hey, you</div><div>simple-looking guy</div><div>speak up</div><div>there's so much to clarify</div><div>don't think</div><div>don't even use your head</div><div>just speak and let it flow</div><div>say how much your heart has bled</div><div><br /></div><div>simple-looking guy</div><div>yet so intricate inside</div><div>please make them understand</div><div>how your loneliness survived</div><div>try to make it clear</div><div>that what you hold so dear</div><div>has left</div><div>and you, simple-looking guy</div><div>can't speak</div><div>or breathe</div><div>or take one step</div><div><br /></div><div>and so you just be</div><div>who you're supposed to be</div><div>who you seem to be</div><div>just that simple-looking guy</div><div>sitting next to me</div><div><br /></div><div>hey, you</div><div>simple-looking guy</div><div>cheer up</div><div>without a reason why</div><div>just laugh</div><div>or smile at me that way</div><div>and for a moment, please forget</div><div>the loneliness of your day</div><div><br /></div><div>hey, you</div><div>simple-looking guy</div><div>hey, you</div><div>man who doesn't cry</div><div>don't speak</div><div>don't even say a word</div><div>'bout how painful it all is</div><div>how all of life has blurred</div><div><br /></div><div>just be</div><div>who you're supposed to be</div><div>who you seem to be</div><div>just that simple-looking guy</div><div>sitting next to me</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4332624935099503487-2057312586377644942?l=shaiah.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Sathepinenoreply@blogger.com